Knowing what I hadn’t done before you left the lands which we both breathed deeply, hurts me endlessly now. I clearly know that I really love you with my lungs breathing your secret in surviving realities. When at last I decided to walk to your apartment on 247th street, you had already gone to other heart-land. I haven’t told you how much and how long I have been loving your raspy voice singing country on highways, while I was whistling through the warm wind at late night. I had tried to touch your unmade long sentences which you meant you imagined in your soul to be told, I had meant to leave my and your soul to swim freely in far away pipe dreamed oceans but it was not allowed to be spitting into the wind in the borders of the oceans before everything happened suddenly as loving without plans. Once I came to your apartment bulding on 247th street, before I arrived to confess, you had gone out again. I knocked, knocked and knocked at the door for very long sentences to confess my deep secret feelings with my hazel eyes and hazel hair…How we were so unlucky that I missed you one more time at night…I still have the story in my heart and I am not afraid of telling it now, but it is too late make more long conversations to make our foggy love to make true even just between us. It will stay as two lovers platonic love each other for long years. I have regretted in every minute of desert because I might have told you that I am a life funk to want help from you to courage me in walking your mind and heart streets before you shut the door on 247th street. What a pitty ! We might have been two very long time lovers ! I am definetely certain that you would believe me exactly if I told you my truth about my soul puzzle.For one thing I am really sorry – I could have never kissed you…Patırtılı, gürültülü bir hikaye anlatmak isterdim, içinde senin ve benim hiç saat tutmadan sokak sokak yürüyebildiğimiz gündüz gece. Nihayetinde bir hikayemiz yok. Biliyordum gündüzdü, geceydi, güvenli değildi, biliyordum sonu yoktu. Arada sırada uykularımız bile imkansızdı, gizli bir seyir hali aşk hikayesinde dolanacaktık . Sen de, ben de üzülecektik. Başka ne söylenebilir ki şimdi ? Olanaksız hamle hayalleriyle geçti bütün zamanlar. Ne okyanuslar gerçek olabildi, ne de çok yakınlar…Denizde, karada, havada, çok uzaklar ve çok yakınlarda çok sessiz bir hikayeyi çok sessiz içimizden okuduk. Çok iyi bildiğim şu, ağzımdan bir türlü çıkamayan cümle, şimdi söylenebilir. Şimdi çok ama çok uzaklardasın ve evet, şimdi söylenebilir : Ben seni deli gibi sevdim….