To be Pollyanna or not? This main question is sometimes silly but always real for everyone. What are the bad moments in life? Getting late for work and everything, morning syndrome, received bills regularly but no letters, have a lot of neighbours, co-workers but no real friends, being about to cry and have no one to call and be with, feeling lonely without a reasonable reason or with very reasonable reasons, need to pay a lot of bills and have no money , quarrel with people who you don’t recognize anywhere in life, being stucked in heavy traffic or rush hours in life, miss your mom, to realise that you have no best friend to tell your dreams anymore, walking at night and stand on a banana peel, let people break your heart, falling and need someone to stand up and notice there is no one to help, people who watching your sadness and say ”I am sorry”, enjoying your blue mood and actually never care about you but seem as your friends or whatever? The only thing mainly we can do favour for ourselves is playing glad game and never lose our soul. Trying to stand on our own legs and going on breathing with our belief. There are some very important times in all our life that we can say before and after, like before I lost my mom and after it. Life changes according to faith stream. Sometimes we can change nothing, we are just obligued to watch what happens to us and try to live and be stronger even than before. If we don’t care about ourselves, believe me that no one cares, either. Imagine that you have a terrible accident and your only belonging, your car is damaged , yes you may worry about your savings but never much more than your health, you might have been injured or caused another’s death and so on. To think in this way may take time but if you decide on standing your own existence, then you will find the right way, easily. We must find the main power in our heart, some friends may worry about us and try to cure our soul, but they can’t do it as you can do for a long time. If you are sad mostly, they may get bored of you and your problems and you might have fewer friends in time by being a sorrowful one. It hurts but the reality of modern life goes like that. Even you have a lot of problems , think that you would have more and more , if you don’t bear all bad moments and get your bearings and try to walk again as if you have never lived bad things. Being a student in life class is endless but to be a good student we must live hard and try to enjoy, don’t make all hours worse than they are actually. Imagine someone who lost all his family but he tries to hold on life even he is completely alone now. There is no one to say hello when he comes home, no one to eat dinner together, no one to share bad and good moments, no one to eat breakfast, no one to say bye when he leaves home and no one says “take care!”, but he walks along the street to work every morning because he believes that he needs to go on living. Living bad moments, try to remember this very lonely man and walk wherever life takes you without stopping. We must do whatever we can do, but the last thing is to put faith in life and being as strong as we can. Finally, I decide on being Pollyanna. What about you?

How Can I Cope With Bad Moments In Life ?
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He’s looking me straight in the eye, as far as could be, a million dialogs passed a life, with melancholy, joy and all doubts… Time always faces us, the shocking realities and surprising ceremonies all in one life. There has been no possibility to live the same moments again with same feelings, same hopes, same dreams… Something strange in our relation tone, never same… Why should anyone expect all good in life with endless pipe dreams and hopes? Would you ever live the same life with the same hurt to live the same beautiful moments again? Would I? I am confused. There had been many times you had wanted to leave before you got aged. Now, it is only time to stay at home, in the reliable neighbourhood, in the same city, with the same life, which you know really well with the same streets, same scent, same sense… It took plenty of years to be patient in every kind of moment in the life, I must say time works fine for it, it sure makes you realize that controlling the life and fate is never possible… It had never left you to do your exact plans forever before you decided to go away from the probable moment you would live. Everything might have been worse. Even I had a tough time around you in years, how grateful I am for a second chance to continue to live with you… Thank goodness! You didn’t die in the accident, dear…

The Same Life
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Five Common Promises We Can’t Keep Oftenly – Let’s be honest to ourselves, we usually make a lot of promises almost every day and unfortunately, we are unable to keep our all promises because of the heaviness of schedules in routine life. Don’t feel guilty about promises, it is as usual as life, we are not automatic robots yet to make all the orders regularly well. We have feelings to be a human being to make mistakes which make us different than a machine. Relax and read about forgotten promises. 1- I will start a new diet on Monday and never give it up this time. I’ll be a member of a gym and work out three times a week. 2- I won’t go shopping, at least for months ! 3- No more time and money to waste! Time passes, I need to save money for bad days and future. 4- I will start volunteer work to help people. At least, I must help my family and friends. 5- I will never regret and worry about silly things. No more being unhappy moments for nothing. I will always be happy now.

Five Common Promises We Can’t Keep Oftenly
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Magic Versus Real Life :

I am irritated. This is a groundless going. You don’t want to pay for lining, you don’t want to pay for cloth but you wish you had a wonderful coat… What a diet , what a hamburger! What do you want to be, exactly? ”An astronaut !” If you become an astronaut , believe me that you will be very happy. A country will yell after you as a ” broke astronaut !”. Be familiar to the real life ! Don’t be strange for others! Odd or weird! Be a usual soul. If not, you are a loser. Just a loser. For example, be a doctor, so that you can be liked and respected by others, in this country doctors are mostly liked. Now, you have no chance to be happy with merry-go-rounds… No more circuses, no more fun fairs, no more fables… You are a long road runner, now. You mustn’t have dreams of space, alliens or stars… You wanna be the first one who goes to the moon? You had missed the train many years ago. Who takes you to the moon or sun? You have no rich circle of friends, no politicians, no  familiars from the mars… So what? No chance for pulling the wires… Pull yourself together. Imagine the dreams to be grown into a real man! If you want good shoes, you need a good job! A real man never runs on sun flower farms… You have a childish heart who has just pipe dreams.

The Dream Of Being An Astronaut
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Walking around a boring life these days, then change your road routine. You don’t want to look in a mirror, change your hair and make-up style. Getting up early is a chore for you , find out something you love to do in the morning. You think that your life is boring, find a new friend to make your hours different. If you need a very different change, think about the thing what you have never couraged to do so far and do it right away. If you can afford, go on a vacation to discover yourself and new everything. If you can’t leave the city, go to different restaurants to try ethnic food like frog leg. You need a change, so what ? Join to enjoyable clubs like tango or samba clubs, dance for hours as much as you have never danced in all your life. You will sure love the life much more with music and dancing, you won’t want to complain about usual chores which you need to do everyday. Believe me, everything gets easier when you have things to do which you really enjoy. Learning a new language can be very exciting to meet an Italian in Milano or a French in Paris. More friends mean more smiles! If you are a driver, you may change  your mind to be a rider of a classic motorcycle of 60s. Is it really impossible? You can do whatever you wish if you exactly decide on trying it. Everything begins with a first smile to get it. Smile and change your life channel, remember to turn it up!

How Can I Smile? Change Your Life Channel And Turn It Up !
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Very Important Signs You Have Mask – You left home early in the morning. That is the main start you are in the real life now. Heavy traffic, you are a polite driver, respectful, careful, strict to the traffic rules. This is your first mask ! You want to drive fast, honk,  pass when the traffic light is red, shout and say bad things about other drivers and relax in the traffic. Say, are all these confessions just big lies ? Maybe, then think about office time. You smile and treat all co-workers and boss very kind, you look forward to going home but working with full enjoy. This is the second mask of us. You are at home. You are exhausted but your son wants you to play soccer in the living room or if you are lucky enough in the yard. You play hard and win the game of life at home . The third mask you wear untill evening. Now, dinner time. What is that ? Scrambled eggs ! Oh, dear you are a really good cook. Worse, remote control is really remote. What a lovely home time! You wear the fourth mask. You are always happy with your family. Now, The fifth and final mask : You believe you live your own life

Five Very Important Signs You Have Masks
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Unlocked my things and left money. I had had nothing to do with the real world. It is very dusty to be here again in this dreamy room. I had been here years ago with small white hands and now I returned with my hands keeping timeless dreams in them. It had been raining years ago and surprisingly it has been still raining as years never passed in the same tone. The same cafe called “cafe of the life ” with same scent of coffee and rained steps of the regular customers with same faces which have never changed as years ago. Same familiar faces walking around the same street across from the same haunted inn with same ghosts. Ghosts must have been good coffee drinkers hanging out every day with past and dust. Standing among unchanged faces, souls, ghosts , I must confess that I was impressed by magic of the life and dreams. Every dream is definitely, clearly, sure possible in the life even every kind of small real stuff is hard to get in the real world. I have mania of living dreams… Nothing in the cafe seems me stranger, every corner has been same as usual as past… Measuring life time, I was endless here in the fog of pipe dreams. I had  been supposed to be successful in real offices but I have been a happy dreamer playing the guitar in the rainy days of years with the chance of a dreamy and foggy heart in this cafe of the past time life… Something in me ? Everything imagined limitless, no time, no hurry, every place in peace, happy hearts… Moments come back whistling old songs with innocent beauty without benefits, as good-hearted as before, getting cold, getting hot but with faithfulness through deepness of imagination. I have mania of the living in dreams… I have never needed meaningful sentences, I have always continued to breath on my own quiet and weird path walking slowly after a rain scent dream. I had left the definite facts carelessly, not to mention others and realities, contrarily, I would like to make the sentences without subjects to change the river stream if it is possible with dreams on my own mania. Is it ? I wish I never went back to conversations which are interrupted in hurry and wish to left unfinished… I only need quietness and patience to complete my relation with foggy nights and dreaming…None is necessary, after time, before time…” I realize how you feel.” Really ? Do You ? I have mania of living in dreams… No more or no fewer words…

The Mania Of Living In Dreams
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Come On ! Twist The Life In Easy 5 Steps – Smile as you are the only one in the world who knows that the world is not flat, guess that you have just discovered America . Believe me , it works : You are wonderful, today! Secondly, never mind daily routine, forget about chores , just give the day as a gift which you have the last day of your life. If possible, and everything is possible beacuse it is your last day, twist again in the streets, listen to whatever you wish and dance crazily. Third step, make a list of people who you want to hug and kiss and do it as soon as possible before the day ends. It will sure make you happier than before you had never hugged them . Fourth step, tell all the truth to a stranger about all your life before evening. It is twist time. At night, be with your love to twist with for hours. If you have no one to twist , then this is the time to find your secret love to twist the life. Never skip twisting the life at least once in life!

Come On! Five Easy Ways To Twist The Life
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I have trained my sights on joining a club. Sometimes people only look for something to live to breath for details, you know the ins and out, some shitty things. To be free has a deep joy but sometimes there is a need to be belonged to and own. I have always wanted to be free but this is the time to belong to a club. Everything is possible when you trust in yourself and I am sure that I can succeed it. Grass lovers association, haunted houses landlords association, voluntary pack rat followers club, collectors of their exboyfriends’  sleeve links union, dreamers to be millionaire with lotteries club or naked idlers club… I wish I were a member of great number of clubs. Life is always different from one to another. Your treasure may be a trash for me , so before judging stay alone for days, weeks and months. I am able to be a good member of any club who accepts my apply. I can walk on the streets, stand among the crowded pavements, enter the shopping malls and even look around windows, ask some questions to information desks, probably ask for the time to a stranger. Yes, I am the one to hit the jackpot.

Sharing the responsibilities and crime relieve our mind. I am very scared to death of being guilty or criminal but I’ve said shit five times since morning. I’ve burnt my hand while  making coffee, clumsy ! oh shit!, I broke my favourite mug that always good life was written on it, oh shit!, while I was picking up the broken pieces, I cut my finger, oh shit!, I have blood phobia, shit!, the door bell is ringing , that’s the put on it , shit neighbour… I have said five times shit , again with this one seven, and I am very scared to death to be a criminal. I have also sworn but this secret is between you and me. Shut up small voice ! I am tired of you… I had never sworn since now and I have had nothing good or luck. Keep me going on life, even I want to swear at you.

It’s nearly six .It is just a perfect day. Some broken pieces and a hurt and bloody finger. This is the bill of the day, actually I don’t want to make account with life, it always beats me with the high numbers, at least three digit numbers.There is nothing healthier than smiling. Thanks to being cheerful, I can take much more oxgyen, I must try to never forget about it. It is helpful for bloodstream, as I lost blood in the morning smiling would be the main solution not be bad and cold. I can manage to detox, I had eaten one hamburger yesterday, so it works even for getting of the harm of fat and high calories, anyway , it was delicious, I have been smiling for the last ten minutes, it is something like a funny game, once when you start it even as a game , it becomes your reality, yes, the game comes true. By the way, smiling is a kind of magic tonic to be younger and more beautiful, nobody can stop me since now, life will go on my smiles, it could even make the ugliest one , an extremely attractive woman or man, so what, who wouldn’t like to grin like a cheshire cat . With my smiles I can bewitch everybody who is rounding me, like a secret gun. Firstly, I must look in mirror and practise smiling poses, I am smiling now, is it good enough to impress one ?, I am trying to smile a bit more, yes, is it far away to be persuasiveness? , I am smiling more sincere, yes that’s it, one is impressed, my teeth are extremely white, if not I musn’t smile, it’s not my opinion, the magazine says it, if my laugh lines seem dramatic I must never smile , why ?, not to look older and uglier than I am of course ! I have to learn the art of smiling, maybe it is a little odd but I am going to be used to smiling different types in front of the mirror, it seems like we will be good friend with my mirror after today, how lucky it is or I am , I shouldn’t get worried about sun lines, I have to take care about the wrickles between my two eye brows, if there are really explicit wrinkles then I should try to smile without wrinkling , there must be a way to do it right, and secondly, if I suceed it as it must be, then I must talk in a good voice while smiling, my voice mustn’t sound artificial or tough, yes it looks like I am going to work on smiling more and more days, untill I believe I am really happy and cheerful. I don’t exagerate everything about smiling or wrinkles, I don’t retail all the smallest things and I don’t want to be extremely boring, time and eveything is as same as I behave right now. I am sorry, dear mirror, you are not damned funny ! This is my job today.

It is a new morning and a new life with my new style tittering. Oh dear mirror, tell me I am the most beautiful woman with the most beautiful smile in the world … I considered myself to be a happy woman. I always take a shower every morning and wear the most beautiful color dress and wonderful leather shoes and get ready to walk around the mirror and real life. When I am out , I always walk along the street carefully without standing on banana peels and try to mince very oftenly. Whenever I wanted to change my walking direction from south to north, I look in my mirror and at the most beautiful and attractive pose, I change my way to be in different place , different moment. I have never failed timing and I suppose I am always perfect. My eyes are a little bit big but they look everything hot, my hair is messy but it smells fantastic , I am not tall but I won’t be a basketball player, so I am a very romantic and far away beauty of deepness in mirrors. Maybe I am exceeding the speed limit as a liar walker, maybe not! Anyway , I minced on my own choice within 24 hours. What a wonderful woman !

Weeks passed. Many things have changed. Sitting next to the window, I am watching ordinary walkings on the pavements, from left to right, from north to south, I have never known the directions in all my life, that is the loud and clear lack of my abilities. I have never memorized a beautiful song from start to end, everytime a few words and sung unharmonious, never as same as the real song, very oftenly fabled by my soul. There is no time today to question my passing time. I am only a watcher, right now. I have a terrible headache. People in the streets going around my loneliness, rush into solitude poems , they and I are so mismatched. A woman wearing pink high heels look so vivacious that she can hug everybody and dance singing a crowded song… Me ? I am sitting on an old green wing chair to be a watcher. Without taking risk, I am breathing in the living room. Today, I don’t feel like dreaming or reading a long poem, I am clear on being realist. The old man trying to across the street can’t see the cars, signs, streets even with his big glasses. Life is more difficult for him. Another man, sitting on the corner with his dog is a homeless. He hasn’t even an old green wing chair to sit and regret or dream. This is the real pavement. Today I have no dreams. Life is real enough for me to sit and think about it. I am thinking of you, dear life.

The Scary Life Fantasy
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