Ashes

I am in a board and plain land. I have no reason. I haven’t had any reason at all. I feel like being around a bedroom. Everything is lost. I have a middling soul, neither happy nor unhappy. Everything is on two sides, on the left, on the right, fairly nearby but… Everything has gone. All furniture which remained in two probable choices… When everything had been neat, suddenly it became confused enough for everyone… Mirrors, shoes, keys, cigarette boxes, lipsticks, ash, ash, ashes… A million and one furniture is in the dead of the night. A board and plain land. Everthing has been straggled… I hadn’t done anything for it. I hadn’t promised to be home toward noon. I hadn’t mooted a random story around the room. The furniture which is similar each other doesn’t have to belong to me or loyal to me endlessly. Ash, ash, ashes… I didn’t backpedal the future which we had planned together with big promises. I am not the one who changed the other day, the other night, the other week… I had never promised another life… I just feel like going away… Various happenings, various nights, various lives, various ashes… Various other lives…. A board and plain land… I don’t have the intention to do evil to be even… Purely and simply I wanna go away. I don’t want to answer to fateful questions, I don’t want to tell the secrets …  I don’t mind passing the limits. I really got bored of being sober-minded… Even you want to make all the day, all the night, all the life suitable, I am not the suitable one for being suitable. I want to go away… Even you say that you loved me in all dead lanuages, I am not suitable for you. I don’t mind being  unimportant person while I’m telling unimportant things… Light orange … I am in a board and plain time… Above all ? I am on the farther, farther, farther way… Ash, ash, ashes… I am farther away than routine, usual, farther away than nature of things… I have never got a story in me which may make me evil, I have never opened the blinds, I have always wanted a life without parcels. I am in a board and plain land.